We were meant to live for so much more..

I LOVE YOU SWEET JESUS

2009-10-10T00:49:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU SWEET JESUS

I LOVE YOU SWEET JESUS
I LOVE YOU MY LORD
I DESIRE MORE OF YOU
CLOSER IN MY LIFE
I SURRENDER MY HEART TO YOU

I LOVE YOU SWEET JESUS
I LOVE YOU MY LORD
I'LL GIVE UP ALL I HAVE
IN EXCHANGE FOR ALL OF YOU
I BELONG TO NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU

I CLOSE MY EYES
LIFT MY HANDS TO WORSHIP YOU
YOU'RE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE
NO ONE ELSE MATTERS
IN THIS WORLD BUT YOU
NO ONE CAN TAKE YOUR PLACE
IN MY HEART

NO ONE LIKE YOU

arise and build

2009-08-27T03:09:00.006+08:00

joseph clifford is so excited for the next BUILDING FUND! can't wait to see God's new house! Woo!

This song just came to my mind of a sudden but i just felt it was too sudden and I'm really so excited to see the next building that we will have. That it will be in the marketplace, for the marketplace and to penetrate the marketplace! Gosh! It feels so long since I was last so excited about it but praise God because I know that God has brought me out of weariness in sowing by giving me new life and fresh mana, revelation and vision! woohoo! let's arise and built and love God wholeheartedly and love people fervently! =) it's just about building buildings but it's about building lives! =)

sings, "Your kingdom come."

sings, "Your will be done."

you turned my life around Lord.

2009-08-17T03:45:00.008+08:00

Songsheet. Ha.

Praise God! Thank God for placing His word in my life! Heaven and earth may past away but His word will never past away. It is my sword in war and yet it comforts and strengthen me when i'm down and weary.

Poh! =)

boy i sure miss all these! =)

Recently I'm really thankful as i just began to take a connect group again. I am thankful, and stand in awe that God knowing my weakness and all my imperfections choose to use me and prosper my hands despite of all things and i can only come into one conclusion. That His grace is more than enough. It is the grace of God. Has been. Is now. And will always be.

You're more than enough

2009-08-07T19:45:00.006+08:00

My cell group - my family

And this is a prayer that I prayed that i can be like Job. "Lord, through high waters and stormy seas i know and will always trust that you are God. Even though I lose my all I will still love you because I know you are more than anything else to me. Lord, you're really more than enough and I'll be so glad just to have you.. Though I'm afraid and don't want to lose everything i trust in you even if i really have nothing left, my loved ones and the things of this world, i know that i have not lost my all, because my all is You." Then he sings, "More than enough, you're more than enough, you're more than enough to me.. beautiful one, merciful son the crown of heaven reginning in my heart."

Awesome peeps! - My connect group.

Although, nobody will really know what will happen if that really happen to me one day but nevertheless i pray that I can still move on and love Him more. Yes it will be tough, yes it will take some time, but nevertheless He will become my more than enough and give me the strength to carry on.

Beautiful one, merciful Son.

"So, friends, we can now—without hesitation—walk right up to God, into "the Holy Place." Jesus has cleared the way by the blood of his sacrifice, acting as our priest before God. The "curtain" into God's presence is his body. So let's do it—full of belief, confident that we're presentable inside and out. Let's keep a firm grip on the promises that keep us going. He always keeps his word..." -Hebrews 10:19-25 (Message)

He's on His way.

"...Remember those early days after you first saw the light? Those were the hard times! Nothing they did bothered you, nothing set you back. So don't throw it all away now. You were sure of yourselves then. It's still a sure thing! But you need to stick it out, staying with God's plan so you'll be there for the promised completion. It won't be long now, he's on the way; he'll show up most any minute..." -Hebrews 10:32-39 (Message)

主我献上自己

2009-07-22T22:29:00.008+08:00

strength me O Lord..

我只愿能更多亲近你，
依偎在你同在里，更贴近你的心意…
我只愿能全心依靠你，
永远不离开你…

是你赐给我生命气息，
赐给我温柔的心，让我能全心相信…
世上无人能够取代你，
一生只愿为你…

主我献上自己，成为爱的器皿，
来完成你旨意，一生永不放弃…

主我献上自己，求塑造我生命，
指教我你命定，我全人只为你，
一生只愿为你…

If you only look at us, you might well miss the brightness. We carry this precious Message around in the unadorned clay pots of our ordinary lives. That's to prevent anyone from confusing God's incomparable power with us. As it is, there's not much chance of that. You know for yourselves that we're not much to look at. We've been surrounded and battered by troubles, but we're not demoralized; we're not sure what to do, but we know that God knows what to do; we've been spiritually terrorized, but God hasn't left our side; we've been thrown down, but we haven't broken. What they did to Jesus, they do to us—trial and torture, mockery and murder; what Jesus did among them, he does in us—he lives! Our lives are at constant risk for Jesus' sake, which makes Jesus' life all the more evident in us. While we're going through the worst, you're getting in on the best! 2 Cor 4:7-11 ( The Message )

You're more than enough Lord, more than enough, more than enough for me..

2009-07-19T04:02:00.004+08:00

Beautiful One.

The past one week has been simply amazing! What a time i spent with my dad. Indeed it is the like the longer we are father and son the more the relationship grows sweeter and stronger! Praise the Lord! ha. Well. Thank God! for strength and capacity and that touch, that has enabled me to love Him even more despite all the business and the lack of sleep! Ha. Indeed if you seek Me with all your heart, I will be found by you!

Abundance.

We sang a new worship song today and the bridge really caught my heart. It just went "You're more than enough Lord, more than enough, you're more then enough for me.." again and again we sang this and God really ministered to my spirit. Sometimes i will think a lot and when i say think a lot i really mean i think a lot a lot. ha. Perhepas that's a strength or maybe a weakness? Double-mindedness? But really praise God because I know no matter what challenges are set before me, I know that He is more than enough, more than enough, more than enough for me. Gotta learn to laugh it over! =)

Le Grand Chef

Anyway this is really a very nice Korean drama to watch. Okay. I know not very spiritual but seriously besides the F4 you should really watch this show! ha. Watching it simply makes you hungry. Anyway guys if you're reading this I hope you'll be encouraged! Don't give up. Because.. He's more than enough.."

you lifted me out! WOAH-OH-OH-OH!

2009-07-12T03:57:00.004+08:00

you lifted me out!

Praise the Lord!! The last few days have been extremely hectic for me yet God never failed to lift me up! He never failed to show Himself gave me the boldness and faith to do certain things! Oh ya! My dad came back! Love him so much! My sister too and my hands are aching from carry her. Solid 16kilos. Ouch. Worst then my field pack man.

Cute la. But very heavy. haha.

Thankfully it is in these stretching moments where your capacity increases and when you can see the depth of your faith and trust in God. This is when i can learn from them and make sure i'll do better then next time. But Thank God for people too. Kenneth for helping me with KS's card! "Bro couldn't have done it without you! your photoshop skills are like magic. thanks!" Qifeng and gang too for the celebrations. But more importantly thank God for His might!

"Then Jesus said to him, “Away with you, Satan! For it is written, ‘You shall worship the LORD your God, and Him only you shall serve.’” Then the devil left Him, and behold, angels came and ministered to Him." - Mark 4:10-11

My great friends.

what then can seperate us?

2009-07-04T21:43:00.005+08:00

It's a long long time since i last blog but somehow when i was playing my guitar today the Lord reminded me about certain things in my life.

Back then I was still a kid in MJ and went through the transitions from my secondary school days to another level of society. It was in the days when there was still a GT zone. God really molded me. Through high waters through deep valleys, with only one intention in mind and that was to make me stronger and bring me closer. It was then i start to learn the true meaning of serventhood. I really did everything to the best that i could. I discipled them, gave them a vision and lay down my life for them. Praise God, the group grew. (Disclaimer - I studied really hard too.) However I was still quite far away from the Lord.

But it was then i started to enter into another level - Sonship. How it is not about how much I can do but for what and for who am I doing all these for. What and whose DNA and I actually carrying. I learn to walk in step in with God. Like the sulamite woman. It was like a time with the Lord in the vineyard and He taught me and showed me. How to lead and how to serve.

It has been 2 years since then. This september will mark that 2 year mark. I ask myself, how far have i ran, how much of me has changed. I know that there is still a long way to go but the last 2 years have definately not been short to me, i hit higher mountains as well as deeper valleys. Perhaps, that's just how God work. And now no longer only i know God as how i use to but He has become Genesco to me. Closer to me than my very own breath.

Tekong buddies!

I have felt that before and that was in the days when i was in Tekong, when there was no one else, no one else but God. My cell group members weren't there and my family weren't there too. But of course they did a lot to support and to cheer me on, but it was the Lord that really sustain me. I was really broken and i really need God to keep walking and keep believing. Like what Royston wrote in a book that the cell group gave me, some times when you cannot see the hand of God moving, learn to trust in His heart.

I'm really excited in the new chapter ahead and i do not know what the future may hold but nevertheless i just want to love him more and become more true to Him. Still many areas of imperfection but i will not let these areas grab hold of me and cause me to grow further from God. Indeed the I am in the Lord's camp, who then shall I fear, for I can do all things through Christ whom strengthens me!

"So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ's love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture:

They kill us in cold blood because they hate you.
We're sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one.
None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I'm absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us." - Romans 8:34-39 (The Message)

learning to hear more.

2009-06-28T04:11:00.001+08:00

walking the walk. :)

Thank God for it.

2009-06-07T10:16:00.004+08:00

Our Last Night.

We were that 3 boys
People didn't look at
We were that 3 boys
Playing our guitars all night long.

We came from different homes
We just want to get it over
We just wanted to go home.

Stuck with each other
Came to conclusion
That we were in this
Together..

Once we're strangers
Then accquantance
Once we're stragners
Now we're brothers

Looking back,
We thought we never could,
Looking back,
We grew stronger too

Now that we've grown up
We are moving on
Doing greater things
On our own

After many years
That same 3 men met
Came to conclusion
That we could never forget.

DRAW ME AND WE WILL RUN AFTER YOU

2009-05-31T14:10:00.003+08:00

ONCE I HAVE TURN MY FACE FROM THEE
YET YOU SOUGHT ME AND YOU CLEANSED ME
MADE ME WHOLE AGAIN
JESUS MY SAVIOR
MY BELOVED AND FRIEND
YOUR PRAISES I BRING
FROM MY HEART I SING

DRAW ME, O DRAW ME AWAY
MESSIAH TODAY
TO YOUR PRESENCE TO STAY
O JESUS NOW CHANGE ME
AND MOULD ME THAT I CAN BE
EVERMORE TRUE TO THEE

YOU ARE THE SHEPHERD OF MY HEART
YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME TO YOUR CHAMBER
MY MASTER AND KING
YOU LIGHT UP MY DARKNESS
AND GAVE ME YOUR WORD
THAT YOU'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME
NOR NO EVER WILL LEAVE ME

Cast your burdens unto the Lord and He shall sustain you!

2009-05-27T23:58:00.004+08:00

"你要把你的重担卸给耶和华，他必抚养你；他永不叫义人动摇。" - 詩篇 55:22

I really like what the bible says, God won't disappoint us. If we seek first His kingdom, all that we need will be added back unto us.

"你们要先求他的国和他的义，这些东西都要加给你们 "了-馬太福音 6:33

Walking in the spirit

2009-05-26T22:26:00.004+08:00

"I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law...

Now the works of the flesh are evident, which are: adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lewdness, idolatry, sorcery, hatred, contentions, jealousies, outbursts of wrath, selfish ambitions, dissensions, heresies, envy, murders, drunkenness, revelries, and the like; of which I tell you beforehand, just as I also told you in time past, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another."
-Galatians 5:16-26

My top 3 cravings

2009-05-25T15:14:00.008+08:00

Canon 500D

The 500D is a very capable camera that is ideal for someone who is just entering the world of digital SLRs. The inclusion of high-definition video adds even more appeal to the already good-looking package. It's a pretty crowded market segment, with the Nikon D5000 and the Olympus E-620 also in the "not quite entry level"' dSLR space, but the 500D is a pretty strong contender and on specs alone is very appealing. - Review from Cnet Australia

Fossil Watches (S+ark collection)

Have really been thinking about these few things recently. Not that i am hard up to have them but i defiantely wouldn't mind having them as a blessing. Ha! But anyway recently have been reading up more on photography and webdesign and setting up businesses. I really believe that if we can see it we can have it. Now that i'm in the army i don't want to waste 2 years of my life doing nothing but if i can, i want to pick up as much skills as i can. Bought lots of CD too. Indeed like what Poh says, when your appreciation of music increases you get better as well. ha. Thank you Poh!

Fender Strat USA (Cream colour!)

This week has been awesome. Not only was the Shanghai trip amazing but as well as the service with Pst Mike. Indeed when we are broken before God, He becomes so much more real and tangible. ha! This trip was a short but extremely fruitful one. Bought back a guitar for Nicholas and most importantly i really spent quality time with my dad. (Shall upload the pictures soon) And i was sharing with my cg friends how i can never out give him. Ya. Anyway was super impacted by this verse. "我们若是靠圣灵得生，就当靠圣灵行事。" -加拉太書 5:25

She's really getting more and more adorable!

United making history.

2009-05-17T00:33:00.004+08:00

Congrats United. Well done and you should keep Tevez and sell that Tottenham player. "Wenger.. Please.. 4 seasons is too long."

More than conquerors!

2009-05-13T00:49:00.002+08:00

You showed me life, you open my eyes!

Really miss morning prayer meetings at Heart of God church and wednesday night Bible study at Riverwalk. Man.. It was really all these that kept me going and gave me that refreshing touch every time i needed an energy booster. The Word of God and that unexplainable presence. Well, this this the last week of my current course and i really thank God i manage to finish it. Going into the course injured and disappointed, I never thought that i can finish it. But nevertheless thank God and that it is over.

By this shall all men know you are my disciples, if you have love one for another.

Anyway, been trying to start a business lately and defiantely when I really want to do so, there will surely be much valleys and mountains and Goliath i need to slay. So many things i am not good at and need to learn, but thank God, because i believe that He will use whatever i have and no matter how tough it may seem, like Shamgar, God and I are the majority! (implies for all your studies as well!) Been reading Romans 8 and have been meditating upon it. Really pray that whatever is written in that chapter will come to past in my life!

Romans 8 (read it!)
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=romans%208&version=50

The Beattitudes

2009-05-04T11:42:00.002+08:00

Hungry..

The Beattitudes
When Jesus saw his ministry drawing huge crowds, he climbed a hillside. Those who were apprenticed to him, the committed, climbed with him. Arriving at a quiet place, he sat down and taught his climbing companions. This is what he said:

³"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.

⁴"You're blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.

The fries is awesome!

⁵"You're blessed when you're content with just who you are—no more, no less. That's the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can't be bought.

⁶"You're blessed when you've worked up a good appetite for God. He's food and drink in the best meal you'll ever eat.

⁷"You're blessed when you care. At the moment of being 'care-full,' you find yourselves cared for.

Thank you Mummy!

⁸"You're blessed when you get your inside world—your mind and heart—put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.

⁹"You're blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That's when you discover who you really are, and your place in God's family.

¹⁰"You're blessed when your commitment to God provokes persecution. The persecution drives you even deeper into God's kingdom.

New shirts!

^11-12"Not only that—count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don't like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.

-Matthew 5:1-12 (Message Bible)

my hosea - Jesus

2009-05-03T16:20:00.011+08:00

My new hairdo!

Recently many songs have been playing in my mind. These are the songs that remind me those special moments that i had with God. The days when i first followed Jesus and how i have to travel to Jurong West to attend service to the days when i first rose up and took a connect group i cannot deny his faithfulness. He has changed me so much and given me so much. Indeed I can never ever outgive Him. Sometimes even I myself will stop and ponder, have I backslidden in certain convicitions? My vows? The way i value certain things. Like what Royston said our walk with God is filled with alternative paths to the left and the right but nevertheless, let's all learn to fix our eyes on Him because no matter what this world can offer my world means nothing without Him. It's not that i cannot do or have certain things, but i don't want.

Just love the club!

HATI HAMBA (HEART OF A SERVENT)

STANDING IN AWE OF YOUR GRACE
SETTING MY FEET IN YOUR WAYS
ENTERING INTO YOUR PRESENCE
TO BEHOLD YOU FACE TO FACE

GOD OF ALL HEAVEN AND EARTH
HOLDING ME IN YOUR EMBRACE
UNFAILING LOVE THAT SURROUNDS ME
OH..GOD I STAND AMAZED

MY JESUS, MY LORD
YOU’RE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE
WHEREVER YOU GO
WANNA BE BY YOUR SIDE
NO LONGER I
BUT CHRIST LIVING IN ME
SERVING YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY

MY EYES SET ON YOU
IN THIS RACE THAT I RUN
NO LONGER MY WAYS
LET YOUR WILL BE DONE
MAKE ME A SERVANT
MY HEART'S EVER TRUE
CLINGING TO THE CROSS
I'LL FOLLOW YOU
I'LL FOLLOW YOU

going about

2009-05-03T16:06:00.005+08:00

My lovely sister!

Okay! What's up recently for me? I'm completing my BSLC course in 2 weeks time. Thank God for His strength because i was not supposed even to continue this course due to my injuries but thank God that He sustained me! ha! Besides that I am preparing and planning with kenneth and joanne recently about our shop. How do we want to go about, firstly the marketing side, doing it online and whether entering retailing now is a good time and wise move. So i've been busy with lots of stuffs and at the same time in the cg as well. So to all those students out there, just continue to do your best and shine for the Lord! I miss those days but well.. HAHA.

adorable.

If it is possible do continue keep me in your prayers eh! Oh ya! I brought Yande to church this week (finally) and service with Pastor Steve was simply awesome, nothing i have ever seen and He really speaks forth a word in season for us! Can't wait for him to come back again. =)

end time wealth transfer!

2009-05-01T13:05:00.006+08:00

Tan Guang Xiang

Just got back home from camp. It's 3am in the morning and i was supposed to book out around 8-9plus. man. Some people lost stuffs and we had to stayed back to help find it. But the delay wasn't that bad after all. Me and my friends shared a cab back and i felt so blessed in the ride. I think this is what me and kenneth really have in common. We like the night. Especially when we're in a car driving down town and start appreciating all the bright lights. I remember once we did so during one of our birthday or new year celebrations when we just got a cab and drive around.

Steven's road.

Back to the ride. 2 of them were living in tanglin area and the other one my bunk mate sean live at stevens road. I even remember the street name because i went out photo taking and managed to get some great shots there. I was thinking one day i will stay somewhere here. In the heart of the city but people at my age are already doing so. I'm inspired! Really believe like what Dr John Azanzini said, I believe whatever i've sowed over the last few years i will surely reap. Prosper me like how you prospered Joseph.

Like a city whose walls are broken down is a man who lacks self-control.
Proverbs 25:28

Apparels!

2009-04-19T10:14:00.002+08:00

Check out these caps! - http://triple-js.blogspot.com/

My othniel - Jesus Christ

2009-04-16T21:57:00.001+08:00

When the children of Israel cried out to the LORD, the LORD raised up a deliverer for the children of Israel, who delivered them: Othniel the son of Kenaz, Caleb’s younger brother. - Judges 3:9

After coming into the Promised Land, the children of Israel backslided spiritually. In Judges 3, God allowed Cushan-Rishathaim, the king of Mesopotamia, to oppress the people for eight years (Judg. 3:8). Mesopotamia symbolizes the land of our past. It was the world of sin and idolatry that Abraham forsook for Canaan (Acts 7:2-3).

King Cushan-Rishathaim is a type of Satan, the devil, the power who once ruled your life (Eph. 2:1-3). And this wicked king, from the land of the past, came with his forces to oppress God’s people once again. Satan knows that you are now born again. But like Cushan-Rishathaim, he doesn’t want you to enjoy the new life in God. He wants to make a comeback into your life. Are you oppressed with an old habit or a former lust? Or could it be a past hurt, guilt or failure? You need to have the victory over your personal Cushan-Rishathaim who has returned to haunt you.
When God’s people cried out to Him, He sent Othniel to save them (Judg. 3:9). Othniel is a type of Jesus Christ. His name means the “lion of God.” He was from the tribe of Judah. Like Jesus, the Lion of Judah, Othniel was anointed by the Spirit to set the people free from theiroppression (3:10).

Deliverance must begin with a cry. God will only respond when there is a genuine desire within us to see our past dealt with by Him. Many Christians today are aware that they are oppressed by their old hurts, old lusts and old habits. But they don’t really have a desire to rid themselves of them. God will only deliver you when you really want Him and allow Him to. The Bible declares, “Whoever calls on the name of the LORD shall be saved” (Joel 2:32). Whatever your Cushan-Rishathaim may be, Jesus is your present-day Othniel. As you cry out to Him for deliverance, you will find Him to be a very present help in your time of need.

broken and contrite

2009-04-13T13:12:00.005+08:00

take me deeper, deeper than i've ever been before.

"Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Therefore let us, as many as are mature, have this mind; and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal even this to you. Nevertheless, to the degree that we have already attained, let us walk by the same rule, let us be of the same mind." - Philipians 3:12-16 (NKJV)

What's on my mind

2009-04-05T20:33:00.003+08:00

Shanghai - Miss my family there.

Japan and Hong Kong. - really wanna take pictures there!!

Miss those times in Shanghai and Hong Kong. Haha. The kind of carefree feeling. All the shopping, photo-taking and food! Haha.

Temple Street.

Taiwan! - Wanna go there for missions.

I really want to go to Newlife Church. yay! Looking at all their videos from afar is definately inspiring and to think of it we were the one that help them at first. Come on City Harvest! Let's arise and build too!

South Korea.

Love to go up to that prayer mountain. try their local barbecue food. Take all those night shots! And to find a wife. LOL! These are the few places that i really wanna go and take a look and i hope i will be able to have the chance to do so some time near (of course after NS). Haha. I will serve my term and then enjoy that ORD life!

walking by faith

2009-04-05T19:18:00.006+08:00

Many have come and many have gone, but he who does not grow weary, shall reap what he sows in due season. He is real!

Ha! What a week I had in camp. Got to come out twice for medical appointment. yay! Man.. I didn't know that i have flat feet man and how it actually affects my training. As i always have pain in the knee and the back was partly due to the fact that i can't really "run properly". Haha. Guess i'm on the way of being an admin spec, just hope i won't be posted to a stay in vocation or the the failure to down pass and recourse. Haha. Spent lots of time with Royston today and it felt really good as it has been some time I had a chance to fellowship with Him.

Be holy, for I am holy” (1 Pet. 1:16)

Really looking forward to my future after my national service, as i'm really praying and planning what i want to be and what i want to do. Otah business? HAHA. Ya. Really want to start having a proper income that i can stand on my own 2 feet and that i do not need to ask my mother for money. it may be my business or what so ever, maybe giving english and humanities tuition. Haha. Also want to get my degree and sharpen my singing and guitar skills. Haha. Man. Everyday is just an exciting day because like what Pastor Kong shared, your destiny begins to unfold before you when you,re in your mundane work! ha!

longing for more of Him

2009-03-29T20:52:00.003+08:00

Moving on..

Had my postings this week. Hmmm. I got into the course i expected i will get into. Ha! SISPEC. Well just like tekong, the first few nights has certainly been rocky but it just felt like i was on His plam and no matter how shaky it was, He would hold me tight. If i had a chance i would rather finish my national service now and live a civilian life but like what pastor phill preached this week, God will only allow us to go through trails to strengthen us! And i choose to believe that even when the days ahead of me look gloomy at times, He means good for me and every single minute of my life has been planned by Him and i do not need to worry at all!

Booked out, when for prayer meet, service, chalet, cell group and dinner with my mum! giving my all to my God, the one i love most deserve my most percious ones. Amen!

PTE NGOH!

2009-03-13T09:40:00.006+08:00

Finishing the race.

Man! 9 weeks. Just for this one day when i can toss my jockey cap up high and know that i have gone through the first stage of my army life. It has indeed been a great experience. So different from my normal lifestyle. I created many new habits like waking up early, dieting, giving even when it's hard to give and learning to lean so much more on Him. I will never forget those days in my field camp when i was all stressed up and kept on asking myself "why on earth am i here?" then He began to comfort me and clothe me in His presence. Indeed THE GOD I KNOW IS FAITHFUL AND TRUE.

Platoon best!

I made many new friends, really alot. People to me that were really awesome. Talented, sharp, confident, serving and sincere. I was really inspired at many points in my BMT. Thinking that of they can do it why not me? I did not start off as the fittest but as time when by i told myself i had to push myself and only then i can shine. Indeed it was an eye opener for me and if they can do it what more me when i have the Lord with me! MAN!

Vincent Goh - Company's Best

When for Ming Jing's bible study on wednesday night. Really miss that feeling of traveling to riverwalk on wednesday night! Suppose to go to Vincent's place after bs but.. HAHA. Anyway it was awesome. The title for that day's bs was "Repentance from dead works". It really hit me to the very core of my being. Time after time i will fall again and again in the same area and that bs really inspired me to have a breakthrough and most importantly treasure my walk with Him even more!

Mummy! - Thanks so much.

Ming Jing shared on how repenting is more than an emotional feeling. It's more than a deep bitterness but it is a feeling of conviction which causes a change of mind and change of action. That's why many a times accepting christ is not just simply giving Jesus a chance but because you know that you have sinned against this God that love you so much that you decide to make a change in your life. Not a firework kind of believer but one like a burning bush, the fire gets bigger the longer it burns. Slowly but surely!

Sai Meng!

But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants.”’ “And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him.

-Luke 15:17-20 (Parable of the prodigal son)

Scorpion Platoon 4

Thank God for His grace and mercy that allowed me to shine over this whole period of time and like what i first set out to achieve i will not forget and that is to be moulded and become so much more like Him and closer to Him. I manage to teach a lot of my close army buddies guitar and help them in areas that i was stronger. And i believe this coming easter or in the coming weeks more shall be added unto His kingdom. At least to them i know, I have made a difference. Amen!

Man! Such a nostalgic feeling.

Pulau Tekong. Miss that place man. Miss my section mates. Man!

Shall add my post in later! haha. Gotta go catch up with Royston for a morning swim! LOL.

This is the day that the Lord has made.

2009-03-06T13:01:00.002+08:00

Cast your burden on the LORD,
And He shall sustain you;
He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.
-Psalm 55:22

POP!

2009-03-01T18:23:00.003+08:00

"Xianbi.. Treasure your walk with God."

Praise God! i'm through! I made it. these 2 months have definitely been a very memorable period in my life. It was fun, it was not as easy but by His grace i managed to pull through and shine. Before i enter the army there were times that thoughts like what if God was not real would come but after this few months, i can never ever deny that there is a God who loves me and is closer to me than my very own breath. I have learnt so much and became so much more intimate to Him. Field camp was unforgettable, fun at times but tough too but He never failed to show at the end of the day! Praise God! Like what Royston wrote in a little book to me (given by my very loving cg) , "When you cannot see the hand of God moving, learn to trust in His Heart." That's so true. Next up either "sispec" or "ocs" or "8 to 5" (HAHA). Man! Can't wait and i know that all things will work out well to those that love Him.

Army Days

2009-02-08T13:29:00.003+08:00

Platoon 4 Section 3

My bunk mates!

Booking in today already. Phew. About to meet ks and my mum for a dinner. Anyway two main things i set to achieve in my camp. And that is to keep my faith and to shine for the glory of God. To bring as much bunkmates and platoon mates as i can to Christ. And that reminds me about how pastor Kong always share that just by doing this two things we will be carrying our cross. Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People Fervently. There needs to be that fire in us and we cannot grow complacent.

Section 2

Harold and Vincent!

Thank God for great bunk mates and platoon mates. Thank God for favour with my superiors. Indeed i learn that complaining when you're in a valley will not bring you anywhere but it is to press on and lean upon Him then i will not only emerge but at times take joy in my adverseries. Praise God for all that He has done and will be going to do. Field camp this coming week. Do pray that i will go in vertically and return vertically! HAHA. Not horizontally. LOL.

Hee Yong.

"You are my hero, Lord!"

Beautiful saviour

2009-02-07T11:20:00.004+08:00

Desperate for You.

Indeed my very present help in times of need. My Healer. My Provider. My Comfort. My Security. My Love and My Life. Indeed like what Your word that says, all things and i mean all things work out well to those that love you according to your plans and purposes. Lord lead my every step and cause it to glorify you and only you and that all the days of my life i will stay in your house.

Smiles!

"Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good."
Romans 8:26-28 (The Message Bible)

Happy Lunar New Year

2009-01-27T10:18:00.004+08:00

Daddy!

Happy Chinese New Year! Man. My first bookout and a real big surprise, my dad is back. Being in camp may be fun at times but it actually takes a lot of tenacity to stay sharp in holding on to your convictions and shinning. I'm booking in today and the feeling is just kinda irritating, knowing that mt dad is going back tomorrow and i will not be able to see him soon i just don't feel like going back to camp. But..

Jas! Thanks so much.

God spoke to me many times in the camp such that he was closer than ever before. My very and only help in present times of need. He would encourage me, comfort me, feel with me and that i know that no matter how hard the road before me may be i am never alone because He is right there beside me. Nothing beats His presence and through this NS God further showed me that indeed He is real and all things will work out well to those that love him. Indeed i must be like Him. Being that salt and light!

I miss my hair!

7 days to enlistment!

2008-12-31T01:54:00.006+08:00

LOL.

Had lessons with Poh today. It was simply awesome man! Learn lots of stuffs and like what Poh say the more you learn the more your passion grows. I really adore my new guitar and the sound is simply lovely. Learned "stand in awe" and manage to spend some time fellowshipping with Poh asking him certain questions after the lesson. Zon made him such a nice present la and it was only then i remember i forgot Poh's present! Hai. Oh ya. He taught us about how to protect your guitar if stolen. Please take a photo of your guitar's serial number so even if it is sold you can claim it is yours. Haha. Smart man.

Departure.

Checkpoints.

I really encourage guitarist to learn from him as he will really teach you how to improve your skills but most importantly impartations can only be done through relationships. So it's more than just new chords and stuffs. You learn a lot more unkowningly. Haha. Oh ya. Poh found Zon's and Guang xiang's blog so i better blog postive things about him. Lol. No la..(Hi Poh if you're reading, see you on tuesday and wishing you a happy new year!)

My dad's ex work place.

Somewhere near my place.

It's everywhere!

It's 7 days to my enlistment and of course i feeling a little nervous but at the same time excited too. I know it will be tough but certainly very fun also. Getting to know new friends and hear all sort of army jokes really excites me but i will definately miss the life of a civilian. Haha. Must take photo of my IC.

Shanghai Hong Qiao Airport

Blessed and fortunate and happy and spiritually prosperous (in that state in which the born-again child of God enjoys His favor and salvation) are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness (uprightness and right standing with God), for they shall be completely satisfied! - Matthew 5:6 (Message bible)

Last Few Moments In shanghai!

2008-12-18T09:30:00.007+08:00

Wei Ning Road?

The trip is near to an end and just when i'm getting more settled down i'll be heading back already. It's always like that but that i what makes life always exciting, and that is new things always comes. (NS) lol. Anyway i accompany my sis to sleep last night and she is really getting more and more adorable. It feels different to be a brother and especially when she runs to me when i come back home and how she would call for me when i'm away is really indescribable. But this wonder hit me the most. The miracle of being born into this world. How from a baby she grew up taller and stronger. And how there seems to be more and more life in her. I think its the same thing in our walk with God. The older we get we ought to grow taller and stronger with more of God's zoey life within us such that when the world sees us they will feel like what i felt when i saw my sister grow and being like a "小大人". Haha.

Adorable!

Look pretty eh?

This trip i manage to experience a lot of things but i am thankful that He is with me throughout this whole period of time. Indeed He will never leave me nor forsake me! Ha. Firstly i really learn more about my business expansion and in what areas i can venture and how do i do it. Secondly i learn to become a salt and light at home and understand what it means by preaching without words. Many things happen and this trip became more like a adventure then a time of relaxation my ah gong fell sick, auntie helen made a lot of fuss and how my dad was on the brink of giving things up.

Gong gong. (Eunuch)

Kenneth! HAHA.

LOL.

I thank God because like what Sun said i managed to becoming a walking epistle of the gospel of Christ such that from this trip i changed many views about me and definately of God. When i heard Auntie Helen(stepmum) saying this at the dinner table, i overjoyed. "Xianbi has really grown up"(in chinese) I was so happy because all this while she look down on me and felt i was only a spoilt brat but now i did not use words to persuade but she came to her own conclusion. Indeed what was meant for evil, the Lord meant it for good! So press on in every situation because He is ruling over all! that's why i love my name, -Joseph (Go read up about his story eh!)

Rock sial!

Such that "If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end." - 1 Cor 13- 3-5 (the message bible)

I love the view!

During the trip because of my ah gong's health and i manage to stand in the gap to take full responsibilities for him; to bathe for him, feed him and take care of him and unknowingly won my whole family closer to God. Thank God and the church for teaching me all these things. But most importantly i understand the true importance of a family and that beside God it always should be in the top piority. Not even ministry nor studies should take over its place. I really love my family, my father and my sister, i miss gong gong so much. I think it will be at least one more year before i can get to see them. Hai. Ns la..

Smiles!

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." - Romans 8:28

One Night in Shanghai

2008-12-13T09:56:00.008+08:00

Worship.

Praise God! I finally get the chance to come online. Haha. I'm still alive. This trip has been seriously exciting man. Went many places which i didn't go before and tried many things i did try before. Went to sit this pirate ship thing and it was seriously very very fierce and the shopping has been awesome too. Got Onisuka Tigers shoes below hundred. HAHA. Solid la. But the most scary thing was that we alsmost got caught by the military police and beaten up by store vendors. First i tried to act hero to help so ang mo from getting cheated and then we didn't know we were standing beside the ambassy taking photos. Scary man. But thank God He is always there to bless us in our coming in and going forth.

The streets.

...

It's dark at 5.

This trip is really a different one. Life is just like a set. A package. It comes both with mountains and valleys. Someone tagged on my blog and ask if i have setbacks. Well of course. I have plenty. But i have many mountains also because God walk me out of those valleys. Anyway this trip has really been a test of my convictions and values. But i thank God that he remains so real and so true even in shanghai. I never forgot what i had plan before i came over and that is to return back stronger than before.

My Father.

"We are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in dispair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed,"

2 Corinthians 4:8-9

"For a righteous man may fall seven times And rise again, but the wicked shall fall by calamity."

Proverbs 24:17

Let's Go Gunners!

2008-12-01T04:04:00.001+08:00

Arsenal beats Chelsea 2-1

When the stage is bare tonight

2008-11-28T01:35:00.008+08:00

Searching the world. The lost will be Found.

I thank God that He is a God of New Things. Indeed the God that i know heart beats within me. Was looking through some old stuffs and how everything has been recently and i am just Thankful that His grace has always been sufficient for me. Not that i want to take that grace for granted but i thank God that He indeed forgives and forgets. He never came with the plan nor purpose to judge but the world through Him can be saved. So i just wanna thank God that He has brought me to where i am today. Indeed it's not about pleasing man but like King Josiah whom went all out to win His heart despite the crticism of others. Man! Asia Conference has been awesome! Ha. How i wish i could hear more from Dr. A.R Benard, Dr Phil Pringle and Pst Ulf Ekman! They really bring forth a word in its season and that word literally brings forth transformation!

Happy Birthday Kenneth!

But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Matthew 6:33

Thank you mummy!

Thank God A'levels are over. Anyway.. I knew it! I knew i would feel this way. I really miss Meridan. Despite it not being as colourful as Bedok North but it was where God moulded me, where God confronted me when my convictions were challenged and when my will was weak. It is definately by His grace that i got through this phase of my life. Like what Royston said, the result doesn't matter already. I did it! I endured till the very end! Praise God! But still.. Really miss those days that i would laugh and joke for hours with Mong and Brian. Miss those times of chinese lessons when we will laugh from the start to the end. Despite how hard it was, i felt that it was still worth it. It was indeed worth it! 2 years of my life. I know not a single second was wasted.

See you in a while!

Ever since the Asia Conference, i really felt God rekindling the passions that i have once had. Especially when i managed to get on stage while helping Poh carry his guitar to hall 10. Going to Shanghai in a week is certainly going to take these dreams into a whole new level. Been meeting Ken to plan stuffs and we keep getting ideas and i believe it's time to get it done before we complain when someone else gets the same idea also that we once had. So i going to be away for a 2 weeks. Of course it's for a holiday, but i believe there is more that is within that. I going there for my dad, for my sis and for my step mum. To bring in the Presence of God that is in Singapore into that home and prayfully that family will always have the peace and love of God. Also i'm going to expand my networking with more suppliers and dealers. And lastly i'm going to sharpen myself in that 2 weeks and makign sure that i come back sharper and mightier! I'm really going to miss the church, the cell and my mum!
(With much love and prayer, do take care! - To All)

it's coming to the end.

2008-11-17T04:22:00.010+08:00

Heads up!

Phew! Thank God! My last paper is coming already. But i know i sure will miss the times of studying also.. Not simply because i like to study but i really felt that God created men to enjoy work just like how He enjoyed creating the world. Only until when it was good, not just "okay" then He moved on from stage to stage. It is just normal that we will tend to retreat or run away when the heat comes but i know i have a greater purpose in what i am doing . Really wanna take this opportunity to thank those whom cheered me on throughout my whole A level process because it has really not been an easy process but it was His grace and all your encouragements that really allow me to come out feeling like a winner, no matter the result.

MY PASTOR!

Really thank God for Pastor and all the morning prayers! It really helped me to focus so much more each day. Ming Jing's zone is also mind blowing. Thank God I was there for the prayer meet or else i will be missing out so much.

XiaoDessy. (Sorry ah Des.. Ha.)

Joses! Ah Pang! (Son of Encouragement)

Asia Conference in 2 days! A Level Lit in 7 days! I'm going to China in 9 days. Phew. Huge line ups and i thank God for all of it. Meanwhile.. Chiong all the way for Lit paper 4! 7 days to study. Cannot get A really need to long pia! Lol.

Hungry right?

"This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him.

-John 3:16-18 (The Message Bible)

I'm reaching for your heart.

2008-10-09T15:18:00.007+08:00

I tell you.. Don't underestimate these few people.. Power pack ah.

Phew! All of a sudden i really felt like blogging. Was worshiping and praying on my way to Mac to study. Man. It's really awesome. I manage to come across a blog, i would admit that a that start i felt quite disappointed but then as i look at this person's post i still believe with all my heart in that person and that potential that lies in that person. But most importantly i felt like blogging about my recent adventures.

Poh!! (thanks kenneth!)

After Poh's class i can say that the way that i see worship has totally changed and now i can engage the Lord better and closer. I began to realize the importance of skills and confidence in playing and how it is actually alright in making mistakes because it's not simply about the way you play but how your heart seeks after His heart. The thing that Poh share really hit me was the way he would feel the presence of God.

Fishing with Gabriel.

1) By reading the word of God

2) By worshipping with his wooden furniture. - The guitar.

That has been what i have been experiencing also. But for me whenever i listen to Praise and Worship i get extremely misnistered too also. But i really got a revelation and that is the importance of treasuring.

Thanks for the burger king bro! All the best for A's! We need a miracle! hahaa.

This may be a cliche but yet it is so true among many of us. "The grass is greener on the other side.." Haha. Well this is what we feel exactly sometimes. But yet we fail to see that what is God's best for us is what we are having already and we do not need to envy the world. Drinking, partying, endless shopping lists, late night hangouts and just being crazy may seems so attractive to a christian because there are certain values, convictions that we have to live by. However can we do all these things? Definately! Like what Paul says, " All things lawful.." But "Not all things are beneficial."

Don't play play ah!

My life was drastically changed this year when i started to went for bible study every wednesday at riverwalk. It was always Darren who share week by week and deposited eternal joy in me that makes me treasure this God even more. Every week he will touch on the issues of my heart despite the topic in the bible study. It was no longer just a gathering nor a duty but it became a communion, it became a time when i will check my life, my heart and my progress in all my struggles. I guess i can never have darren ministering to me everyday but yet i know i can live a life closer to God. When He (God) will be speaking to me, giving me visions and dreams and that is when like what Darren always share with us, " It is not that we have to, must not or cannot but it becomes a want to do. A wanting to do certain things for God."

I can't wait for Shanghai.

It's not that i cannot go clubbing, it's not that i cannot be fully engrossed with shopping and clothes, it's not that i cannot play dota 24/7 and fail my A levels, and it is not that i cannot get attached. But it's because i don't want. It is because i know, perhaps for me, i'm not as strong as my other brethrens that when i d step into all these i may not be able to control my self and instead of me having fun, fun begins to have me. Most importantly i serve a just and free God, where i know He wants me to enjoy my life to the best that i know how and i treasure this God also. This God that has place something so eternal in me despite me being so temporal at times in Him. So Lord, protect my eyes, and my heart, that all the days of my life i will stay in your house and at that same time boldly engaging the marketplace, making a difference to all those that i can reach out to. Lord.. Come and use me because i know that there is so much more that i am meant to live for.

I really miss my daddy!

Daddy called last night. Just to encourage me for my A'levels. He ask me, "is there anything i can help?" Thank God for such a good daddy and having such a close relationship. Indeed, all glory be unto the Lord, because it is Him that has shaped my family to become a more loving and expressive one. Indeed if He can do so to me in my life, in my family, in my cell group, He can do it unto you also. For we serve the same God and in Him there is no favouritism. Praise God! =D

But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. - 2 Cor 4:7

An upright heart.

2008-10-06T15:16:00.006+08:00

Laughs.

We justify our actions by appearances;
God examines our motives. - Proverbs 21:2

But now your kingdom shall not continue. The LORD has sought for Himself a man after His own heart, and the LORD has commanded him to be commander over His people, because you have not kept what the LORD commanded you.” 1 Sam 13:14

Love this picture!

Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the man whose strength is in You, in whose heart are the highways to Zion. Psalm 84:5 (Amplified)

He makes all things new.

2008-10-05T01:39:00.006+08:00

Heh heh!

Indeed God is a God of new things. Went for Poh's workshop and till now the way that i see worship has become so different. Things are getting better in my work also. Despite the disappointing results of my prelims i know that things will be turned around. It's really really the last lap already! But by my sheer strength i know that i can't really do much so i'm really counting on his grace and annointing.

Thank God for His faithfulness in my walk with Him and the ministry also. Mostly importantly i recieved a revelation recently and felt that it is so powerful and that is the meaning of strength. Strength is not simply having a clean sheet in life but the ability to recover and recover fast when you fall. Since i'm gonna pick myself up why not faster and stronger. Most importantly, He is my strength! ha! =)

haha!

He who overcomes shall inherit all things, and I will be his God and he shall be My son. - Rev 21:7

My Cry

2008-09-26T03:52:00.004+08:00

Let's lay it down.

Life - Hillsongs

Jesus my endless love, You are so beautiful

For Your love has saved me
with all I am, I will honor you
You gave it all for me now I'm yours
so I'm here to say that

I'm living my life for the one above the heavens
the one whose Son was crucified for me
I'm living my Life for the Son that bleed to save us

i want the world to see this love in me

Jesus strengh of my heart, Your love is so beautiful
Your passion is my safety

Your gentleness, You have healed my heart

and captured me with Your love
now I'm Yours
so I'm here to say that

I'll live my live in love with You
You're all I really want in this world
I'll live my life in love with You
You're all I really want in this world

I'm living my life for.

Your faithfulness, none can deny.

2008-09-20T11:30:00.006+08:00

I'm getting this.

It's been a long time since i last blogged. Phew! Well the past few weeks have been fierce! Super stretched but it was great! Most importantly God began to slowly uncover all my worries and doubts and fear! It has really been a roller coaster ride but thank God that He always walked through it with me. Thank God for God! Indeed the labor and ploughing is all worth it when i see myself growing stronger and stronger in Him and i can't help to feel proud about myself for that. Thank God! Indeed.. From faith to faith..

haha.

Went fishing with Gabriel, xiang and ken last night. Slept only a few hours in the morning and there's study group and service later. But it was really a great time. I don't know how to fish and something like Peter.. "We have toll all night.." But we caught nothing! Not even an ekan bili (don't know how to spell) But the fellowship itself was already good enough. Oh ya. Got a revelation similar to Gabriel also regarding fishing after i got home.

Cup noodle power!

We as Christians will always struggle with the mindset of walking the broad way. The comfortable and easy way. The way of the world. But yet that is how Satan tempts us! We are like the fishes and the bait always look so attractive, at time even more attractive then whatever we have, but we must know that, there is more than it meets the eyes! There's a hook behind it and sometimes the joy/pleasure is only temprorary. So why not let's set our joy on the things that are eternal that our joy will also be eternal? For the Lord will do exceedingly, abudantly, above all you can ever think do or ever imagine!

This is not bad..

So.. in the past few weeks.. I begin to understand that there are no trails that are too long.. No valleys that are too deep and no mountains too high that i can't climb! For with God all things are possible and He will never give me anything too hard that i cannot over come. Xianbi Jia you! Spiritually, Physically, Mentally, Emotionally and Acadamically!

Thanks mum!

There was nothing attractive about him, nothing to cause us to take a second look. He was looked down on and passed over, a man who suffered, who knew pain firsthand. One look at him and people turned away. We looked down on him, thought he was scum. But the fact is, it was our pains he carried— our disfigurements, all the things wrong with us. We thought he brought it on himself, that God was punishing him for his own failures. But it was our sins that did that to him, that ripped and tore and crushed him—our sins! He took the punishment, and that made us whole… And by His stripes we are healed
Isaiah 53:4-5(Message Bible with the NKJV)

When the going get tough..

2008-08-15T00:04:00.011+08:00

Love this picture!

Yesterday was Da sao's birthday! So i will wish her one more time here again. Anyway it was an awesome celebration and indeed an eventful week i had. Most importantly i really learn one thing like what Pastor preach in the sermon of the mount.

"When the going gets tough, the tough gets going."

Indeed with my A level 2 more plus months from now i know it will be a time that i will be extremely streched. But having know this i press on to the upward call of God that i may run and finish the good race of faith! Man! It feels great to be walking on waters! Because i know then He's right by my side. Someday i'll start running.

My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever. -Psalm 73:26 (NLT)

mummy!

2008-08-10T02:32:00.012+08:00

Ice Cream!

Mummy!

It's time to 叛乱! My mum is away in missions this week an xiang and sheng are at my place! haha! Anyway really gotta thank God for my family. That as for me and my family we shall really really really serve the Lord! Thank God my dad and mum are saved and they know how to pray and agree already! haha. Especially my mum. Didn't managed to sent her off that day to the jetty. hahaa. Wanted to buy some prunes or nuts for her because i now she really loves it. Home's different without her. Definately i rather have her at home! "MUMMY I MISS YOU!" hahaa.

ICON.

Thank God!

To think of it, it is really the Lord.. But not forgetting those people that God has placed in her life to guide her, like hui jun and her classmates. But most importantly, i just wanna blog about her. I always talk of my dad and shanghai when i blog. Ha. Perhaps he is further away that's why. But now my mum is far away too. She's in Batam(Indonesia) this week and i really miss her.

Teh tarik!

Best Nasi Lemak!

Waaaaa.. Hungry..

People will only learn how to treasure after there is a sense of lost. Mum! Just wanna let you know that you've been the best mum that can ever be and i really love you! Miss hugging you in the morning. Miss your naggings and that smile of yours. Haha. She's really a very cute person. Ha.

my eyes set on you in this race that i run.

2008-07-28T01:56:00.004+08:00

joy!

Had my sabbath today. A good rest. Some run-outs. Godly fellowship and ultimately a renewal in the Spirit and greater faith for what is to come. Played basketball along Marine Parade today and i was extremely blessed and impacted after talking a lot with Jian Feng. It felt like a full scan of my life which started out from my studies, to the ministry, character issues, NS and ultimately to my walk with God. I'm blogging this because i want to keep this as a memorial in my life that even when i grow older and i may not be as strong as when i'm a youth i will remember that vision of me playing my guitar and drawing closer and closer to Him!

Mirroring.

This phase in my life now is really about processing what is to come. After my A levels...What is NS really going to be like, what is entering the marketplace really going to be like and what is my walk with Him going to be like as days turn into months and months into years. Wherever He leads me to i will do my best. Ultimately in these 2 years i pray that i will not only come out as a christian but come out loving Him more than i am doing today.

Friends.

Lastly a more immediate issue awaits me to put excellence and discipline into. My work. I believe i'm coming up to a whole new level and even it seems like the challenges are so huge but if my God is for me then i can do it. It just takes more discipline both in the spirit and in the flesh.

Shinning His colors.

"My God didn't send me to start this race, but He sent me to finish this race." No matter how it all started or developed, i am going to finish the race. Praise the Lord!

"..Well done, good and faithful servant. - Matthew 25:23a

我何等愛你阿爸天父.

2008-07-25T02:14:00.004+08:00

Vintage-

Just finished watching this Hong Kong Drama series called 溏心风暴! Man. I tell you this show is really awesome and it portrays the importance and value of a loving family. It has 40 episodes of course I didn’t watch all or else I will sure be persecuted with my A levels so near. But to those that are finding a show to watch this would be a really good choice. Managed to get some pictures of it so if you have time go and rent it from your neighborhood DVD rental stalls and get it eh!

The Show.

Went to do a visitation today. Really felt a lot for that person and I believe all things will work out well to especially for those who love Him. The previous post I blogged was what I really caught after listening to Pastor Kong’s Sermon on the Mount – The Power Of Brokenness. This week has been an eventful week. Rebukes after rebukes, but it really makes me stronger.

Quite cool eh?

Starry starry night.. - Vincent

Every one of us will have to pay a price to serve God. As much as we love His blessings we must learn to love His suffering also. Our own cup of suffering may be learning humility, the pain of discipleship or the consecration of your life. But no matter what, when that “I” axel is broken within you then can fully feel and release his presence everywhere you go. Really feel so close to God; perhaps it’s after those nights of prayers. Can’t imagine how can I go on if I am dependent on myself. Tomorrow’s Friday! Praise the Lord!

Emirates!

It is no longer i who live

2008-07-24T17:54:00.001+08:00

I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. - Galatians 2:20

称赞神!

2008-07-23T16:51:00.006+08:00

一以最攸久的历史记录 - 中国人民

我是第一次再使用母语来blog .. 真地非常艰苦,想道sun的网站总是用中文,我真正地敬畏. 如果我想要去台湾传播福音, 我必须掌握这方面. 感谢上帝先进技术,我能使用译码器来blog.
称赞神!

耶稣进前来，对他们说：天上地下所有的权柄都赐给我了所以，你们要去，使万民作我的门徒，奉父、子、圣灵的名给他们施洗（或作：给他们施洗，归於父、子、圣灵的名）凡我所吩咐你们的，都教训他们遵守，我就常与你们同在，直到世界的末了。- 馬太福音 28:18-20

Mercies that rise with the new mourn.

2008-07-23T01:10:00.009+08:00

Your word in my life is a lamp unto my feet!

His grace is indeed more than enough! Despite how hard the world tries to take me down, it is not how hard i can it back but how hard can i be hit. With my A levels approaching i am really gearing myself up for it, also i experience a breakthrough in my walk with Him, ministry and studies.

I will fly..

But i am still so needy for more and more of His grace. I was really worn out as the day was so long but the moment i begin to talk to Him it seems as if everything is back into place. Listening to that Chinese song we sang a few weeks ago. His love is just real. He told me something today that turned my day around "You are my beloved son, in whom i'm well pleased." This abba father is simply the best! He does not judge by my grades, how much i pray nor how spiritual i am. His love is really unconditional.

Boldly engaging the marketplace!

Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Psalm 150:6
It's when you don't feel like, don't want to and don't need to that is the most pleasing in His sight.

Seek me first the kingdom of God and all my
righteousness and everything that you need
will be added unto you." - Matt 6:33

Uncle! Wanton mee.

Kai sheng..

一生要讚美
我美好救主
你的愛是我生命全部
一生要敬拜
我親愛天父
你無條件的愛讓我心得滿足

mong!

THOUGH A THOUSAND FALL
MERCIES THAT RISE WITH THE NEW MORN
SET ME APART AS A NEW BORN
EACH MOMENT I LIVE BY FAITH I BELIEVE WITH YOU I'M NEVER ALONE
DARKNESS MAY COME, TRIALS SEEM SO LONG
YOU ARE THE LIGHT I DEPEND ON
THROUGH VALLEYS AND STORMS YOUR WORD KEEPS ME STRONG MY SHELTER, REFUGE AND SONG I TRUST IN YOU

EVERYDAY I LIVE
I KNOW YOU ARE MY GOD
I LIFT MY FACE AND LOOK TO YOU MY LORD
EVEN WHEN THE MOUNTAINS TREMBLE
AND A THOUSAND FALL
I WILL STAND WITH YOU
MY JESUS
TAKE MY ALL

BUT GOD!

2008-07-23T00:49:00.004+08:00

Relationship does.

Difficult is the path and narrow is the way.

You shall mount up with wings like eagles.
Running and not growing weary, walking and not be faint.

The fool says in his heart that "There is no God"

When evil is plot against you.

Whatever is meant for evil the Lord will turn it for good!

Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness.

Though a thousand fall.

2008-07-19T01:01:00.002+08:00

Through valleys and storms, Your word keeps me strong
My shelter, refuge and song
I trust in You

Walau Seribu Rebah (Chinese).mp3 -

Increasing Faithfulness

2008-07-08T10:12:00.005+08:00

Click!

Where will i be then?

Really enjoyed that day after my exams that we just spent the whole day talking photos around town.I didn't know how far we walked but i just knew that the company was great. Oh ya! And we celebrated xiang's B'day also. It's been so fast and we are celebrating his birthday again. haha. To think back of that day i really believe that, that day will definately be one that i will never forget for the rest of my life. Because it just reminds me of how God is so faithful not just in terms of my finances but giving me great friends that are willing to go through the thick and thin! So enjoy some of my best pictures! =)

Candid.

Here we go!

Meow!

Nothing is worth the change.

Ice mountain.

IN THE MARKETPLACE. FOR THE MARKETPLACE. TO PENETRATE THE MARKETPLACE. (Laugh!)

I have never walk on water.

We met around 4 at city hall and attempted to find the end of the Singapore river. But the spirit was willing but the flesh was weak. LOL. Oh ya. We ended the day at circuit road where we had lots of food and then back to my place for the battle of the ancients. haha. Dota! lol. Ultimately the Lord is just great that despite us being spiritual we also wants us to be happy and enjoy life to the best we can! But not at the expense of our walk with Him! Praise the Lord!

Faith, Hope and Love, out of these love is still the greatest.

Openings.

Vintage.

Signs.

Friends are friends forever.. And the Lord..

passion.

2008-06-26T12:04:00.005+08:00

I'm going to get the new kit! Go arsenal!

While revising i was looking through a few blogs. Then it really came to my mind of this burden i had over the past few days. To bring the people around me closer in their walk with God. Then all of a sudden i just felt how great it would be if i can just show them the way i live my life. I mean i'm not trying to say that i am super close to God or my life is super right but i have my flaws also. Just that i want to show them that there is so much more in life then what they are living it for. Perhaps this is the reason throughout the years the burden for youths never left me.

take all of me..

At times i really grew weary but by the grace of God i'm able to be strengthen again and continue to fight for the freedom of many. If only they can come up to another level and realize how close God is to them i believe they will never want to go back to their old lifestyles. I really pray that God will bring forth transformation to whoever is place in my hands and that encounter will challenge them and encourage them to live a life that is more intimate with Him. I want to come to a whole new level too, i really want to know who is this God that i'm serving in a closer way. Just like how Peter managed to get that revelation the Jesus was the Son of God i want to recieve my own revelation of who God is in different times of my life.

Circuit Road!

Royston once told me, that the God that i serve is not only the God of Pastor Kong or Gabriel but my and your God also. So if they can live a life so close to Him why can't I? If they can hear so much from Him why can't I? If they can be so used by Him, why can't I? And if they can love Him so much i also can. " Lord i pray that as the days go by i willnot grow weary, and these hands that you have made will strengthen the weak and everything i have, my mind, my thoughts and actions, my life i place it at Your feet." Love you so much daddy God! =)

Ren Shi Yin Wei Meng Xiang Er Wei Da. ha!

welcome to our family.. haaha.

take me higher.

2008-06-16T00:19:00.005+08:00

E149.

Father's day post.
Praise the Lord! I just got my Mac already. haha. Sorry Royston! Wanted to buy for your first but.. hahaa. Praise God. Anyway today's Father's day. Just called my dad not so long ago. We really had a great fellowship on the phone. Chatting, joking, laughing and lastly praying. He asked me what was i speaking when i prayed in tongues and i found out it was quite difficult to explain to him ah. But at least i told him it was not chanting. Haha. But really thank God that he is so open to the Lord because he see how God really moved within my life and my family. Thank God!

Starbucks! Muggggggggg.

It's about the people.

Recently.
I felt that recently i need to step up more in my walk with Him. Currently in the midst of my exams and my eyes are hurting man. Guess i may have skipped too many nights. However i'm still kind of glad with my revision. At least i know my ultimate aim is still my A levels. After this mid years my prelims would be in 2 months time. Haha. So near. Tomorrow i'm having my lit and math paper. My weakest two and i really found out i have placed a lot effort to salvage this two subjects. Prayfully that when i wake up tomorrow i will be feeling better. hahaa. His grace is made perfect in my weaknesses.

Phew!

It's always in these tough time that i feel Him so close to me. Didn't really had the chance to blog much during the last holiday but i think to sum it all up. It was great. Had many valleys but many victories also. Ultimately at the end of the day to rate if it has been great really determines if i have grown closer to Him or not. Like hui jun told me some time ago, if i wake up knowing i have love Him lesser then i really got to start to do something. " Lord! Here i come, stepping out further from my comfort zone! Use me as your salt and light to shine in where ever You have called me to be!"

With you i'll walk this narrow way.

Breaking through!

2008-05-13T17:01:00.005+08:00

Hi Clifford,
make sure you pay attention to your study. it's so important to you , the result may affect your whole life. first affect your NS, 2nd your university, 3rd,your job, 4th your income, 5th your standard of living, 6th your marriage.....

so you do well this time, a lot of rewards will be following with you immediately.

take care,
dad

This is a short email that my dad sent me. Hmmm. Recently i had people talking to me about this and i really believe that God speak through His people and our parents too. It's time to really sow. For in due season i will reap with joy. These weeks had been tough but there is really no place that can be compared to That place. That Secret place. Strengthen me Lord. Expand my capacity! =) I choose not to focus on what my intellect debates within me but just what You tell me. One word, You know i will follow, One heart broken to You.

Turning away.

2008-04-28T08:50:00.002+08:00

Remember Lot's wife.

What can this world offer?

2008-04-15T23:31:00.007+08:00

what?! ha.

Had a super siong monday and tuesday. haha. Really gear up in the area of my studies again. Anyway today Joses and Desmond came to my place after school. When wanted to break fast together and so met up for dinner. Planned to head for bugis for japanese food but the rain was so heavy la. Haha. Anyway we watch parts of Dr Ed cole's meeting from the church website and we were simply inspired in becoming real men.

Foreginers were fasinated by this. strange.

I use to think calling myself a man of God is pride but yet it is really in the spirit behind it. Becoming a man and woman of God does not depend on our abilities but it is by a decision. A decision to be used by Him.

Jia!

The best part is that i'm starting to fall in love again. All over again with Him. It just seems i know so little about Him. i still don't really know excatly how He feels and like what pastor preached i'm so inspired to know Him more. But in everything it takes time. it's a process.

Ah pang compromise! Green tea!

We can't simply jump from praying 5mins to an hour instantanously but yet if we keep on trying, slowly we can. 2 songs that really played a trigger something in my life was "Take all of me", and "All i desire is You." Man. Just got reminded of the times that i strayed away he pulled me back. I really wonder how my posts would be like if today or that day i chose not to walk the narrow way. But the road before me is still long. haha. This is only the beginning. God guide me.

aloy.

"Don’t let me suffer the fate of sinners. Don’t condemn me along with murderers. Their hands are dirty with evil schemes, and they constantly take bribes. But I am not like that; I live with integrity. So redeem me and show me mercy. Now I stand on solid ground, and I will publicly praise the Lord."
-Psl 26:9-12 (NLT)

Transitions

2008-04-14T17:42:00.003+08:00

ha!

Sometimes when all things seem fine you'll get wack. Most of the time very hard on the head and then you will be facing a situation. To compromise or not to compromise. To drop your standard or the hold onto that even when no one is looking. But nevertheless i felt something recently. Some people just cannot leave God. Because they just love Him too much and no matter what happens in their life, how they get hit they just keep praying because they just love Him too much. Just a remembrance from His spirit of the encounters he had he will just slide back and hold on even tighter onto Him. It's really so important to pray because when we do we start to be in a relationship with Him and it is this real relationship that despite the mighty storms we are still able to walk on water.

Wham! - convictions

"Lord. Make me a better son. Make me a better servent. Especially when i'm really treated as one. " Get your walk right! =) where can we run from His presence? under His wings we take refuge. Man. I really really really need Him.

McGriddles

Who told you that?

2008-04-10T00:18:00.005+08:00

Gayness.

Yawn. I'm so shag. Went for the medical check up today. Haiya. Was quite disappointed with the results but nevertheless His will be done. haa. Hope i can wake up early tomorrow and like what Pastor preached then i can be ahead of everyone but above of that have time to contemplate and visualize my day. Anyway Bs was awesome. Can't wait to share it this friday. Anyway the thing that really hit me the most was the part when darren shared how God spoke to Adam.

It seems like i'm so attracted to signs.

Many times we think we are weak or are constantly restricted by our limitations and we forget who we are in Christ. Have you ever wondered who told you that you are weak? "Who told you that you couldn't make it?" "Who told you that you are not pretty enough?" "Who told you that no one loves you?" It wasn't God. It was never God.

Moo.

But yet we allow ourselves and talk ourselves into thinking these ways. And because we are already defeated in the spirit and mind we are defeated also in the flesh. So the next time you feel discourage because of something, ask yourself what God ask Adam. "who told you that?" Yearn for that encounter. It's what that keeps me on and what that will keep you on too.

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the LORD, and I will bring you back from your captivity; I will gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you, says the LORD, and I will bring you to the place from which I cause you to be carried away captive."
Jeremiah 29:11-14

Bubbles.

You are Faithful and true.

2008-04-08T13:15:00.004+08:00

I'll walk with You this narrow way.

God is so faithful. Really so thankful for all He has done in my life. Indeed a man who works hard truely can enjoy his fruits. I finally understood how kenneth felt when i was able to lead my own group. I finally understand how Bee yean felt when Shi ting stayed in church and how pastor feels when his parents are praising and worshipping God in the front row. Just wanted to encourage those that are in the mids of their hard work. Press on! The fruits are worth waiting for. Guess God is really taking me to another level which means new warfare. New levels, new demons. But i believe with Him all things are possible, for if my God is for me then who can be against me. But ultimately i pray that my heart will never sway away from His because when that happens i know that instead of joy i will be living in sorrow.

Importance of saving.

Yup. The past few days was awesome. tough but awesome. Kai sheng came this week and i was so touched by the message he sent me. "Bro! Jia you!" Oh ya. Skipped school today cause i was down with a very bad sore throat yesterday. Haha. Resting is necessary to run further. Cleared my GP homework but still got lots more to catch up. Lit. Hist. Math. It just never ends. But i just install dota on my com. so... HAHA. nvm. Must remember what Gabriel told me. "stay consistent!" hahaa. okay la. Go to rush off to meet royston!

Being a salt and light in the marketplace. - Joseph

Or do you think that the Scripture says in vain, “The Spirit who dwells in us yearns jealously”? But He gives more grace. Therefore He says:“ God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble.
-James 4:5-6

They still can make it!

I will bless the Lord with all my soul.

2008-04-06T05:29:00.001+08:00

enlarging. expanding. emerging.

2008-04-05T01:43:00.002+08:00

rising up.

i really so want to blog. hahaa. got lots of stuffs to say also. hahaa. but well. it's my NS check up tomorrow and i've got to go back to school for econs. But if there's one thing i need is really strengthen. Lord enlarge my tents! =)

remember samson.

2008-03-31T00:43:00.003+08:00

Don't start where you are and end up still being in the same place. Once i was hit so badly in that area and maybe even till today i'm still facing it. But yet thinking about His goodness and faithfulness that literally carried me out of it i don't want to be at that place again. If i would to choose, i will choose to dwell in Your house forever. Was helping my mum to get the bible school application form and saw the "missions" application form. Thinking about it, i really want to get out there and start doing greater things for Him. Even now as i'm thinking about my ministry and studies there's just so much that's waiting for me to conqueror. Our lusts and needs are often beyond what we can gratify. We can only drive one car, read one book wear one outfit but we always desire for so much more. It's so important we learn to be contented with whatever we have then at least we will treasure the little things more.

Today God rekindled a dead dream. One that i thought was perhaps my own pride seeking desire. I pray that it will come to past. But even if not i'm already thankful. Lastly let it be done according to His will.

easter!

2008-03-22T01:41:00.002+08:00

Yes!

The drama was solid la. hahaa. really thank God. It never fails to touch my heart when i read about Peter's encounter with Jesus after Jesus appeared from his death. John 21. It's like so mnay times my heart have slid away. Either in pride or my own self-ful desires then i would come back into His arms again. The longer it is the sweeter the relationship gets. It's really like marriage. I get to know Him in through different things and ways. Someone once told me this and i never forget it. "Xianbi. Sometimes i really pray that God will put more trials in my life because it is always in these tough times that i feel closest to Him" I found a verse recently.

smiles.

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Cor 12 : 9-10 (NKJV) emphasis added.

Guard your mind and heart.

"My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become." - 2 Cor 12 :9 -10 (The Message Bible) emphasis added.

thanks.

2008-03-22T01:24:00.002+08:00

All time favourite.

My exams have finally ended. Praise the Lord. At least i tried my best. =) thank God for my old posts. Sometimes when i feel like just giving up and be the same just like everyone else, i would be convicted by my olders posts, when i saw my faith and discipline fell. Anyway. During thursday which was one day before my final paper we had prayer meet at my place. Had dinner with them. Got the privillege to serve by cooking with the brothers for the sisters. But in the end it didn't really taste very good. Then Royston really like ninja sia. hahaa. all of a sudden when we were eating you can see him washing up already. thank God for such a cgl that really show us what is serventhood. So when everyone else went home and i thought he did also he came up with da sao and bought me my favourite packet of fried rice knowing that i didn't really eat before that. really thank God. thanks for all your encouragements and prayers. That you have not only been a great leader but a friend. If God didn't place in my life such a great friend and leader i doubt i would have come this far.

YOU ARE DESERVING

2008-03-17T23:51:00.004+08:00

deep inside my heart is burning.

take my hand

2008-03-14T15:48:00.001+08:00

I finally got it.

"Most assuredly, I say to you, when you were younger, you girded yourself and walked where you wished; but when you are old, you will stretch out your hands, and another will gird you and carry you where you do not wish.”

-John 21:18

what can be more precious.

2008-03-14T06:17:00.005+08:00

I long for the day to have a picture with You.

You are why I sing,
You are why I live,
Everything of me I place at your feet.

You are why I love,
You are why I give
Everything of me belongs to you.

take me deeper. deeper then i've even been before. So i can know You so much more. there is just so much more i want to know about you, hear from you, see you.

faith.

2008-03-12T04:38:00.009+08:00

cheese.

I've finally got it! ha. :)

hahaa. it's 5am already. my general paper's over. hahaa. but the tougher ones are coming already. this year is really a year that i've ever work so hard for something. especially in my studies, walk with Him and the ministry. i never forget what Garbriel once told me at the start of this year one day after bible study. He said, "Good xianbi. But always remember the hardest thing to do in life is remain consistent." ha. I really took that word and i always remind myself of what he told me. Didn't want to disappoint him. hahaa.

ha.

well. the past 4 days. i wouldn't say that it was a simple waste of time but i felt so unfaithful in managing my time. i guess it's true that sometimes we always ask for more time but yet when so much time is given to us we fail to manage it because we're ill discipline and complacent. really got to mug so much harder for the next few days. first time i felt out of that choing spirit but i need to get into the right pace again.

effort.

i rather do my best and fail rather than sit back and face the music. It's a constant battle. But all i keep doing is to pray. Because i know that by my strength i cannot overcome them. guess tomorrow's going to be a great day. oh ya. this hit me real hard. "You will only know if someone is really becoming a servent when he is really treated as one." wow. that is really a test of humility.

You're the strength, strength like no other.

Sot.

commitment.

Starving the old man.

2008-02-26T09:50:00.001+08:00

Let nothing that comes from the world shake me.

Being a worshipper.

2008-02-10T03:08:00.000+08:00

Praise God. Breakthrough!

Chinese New Year! Hahaa. This year feels so different. Dad's not here and there seem to be so much changes. Hahaa. But thank God they're good ones. Well i really must discipline myself in my spending now that i really have enough clothes already. Just counted my all my clothings, and if i continue buying then i'm really spoilt. But well i really need a proper pants but that can wait. It feels so strange not to be in church on saturday but i went out with xiang and ken today. We went to marina for dinner and i really felt we've "aged". hahaa. Becoming like our fathers, walking into Creative looking for sound systems and started talking about what cars we're going for and stuffs like that. Hahaa. Good la. We're moving forward. Thankfully.

Zara.

Sorry ah.

It feels weird blogging because it's like so long since i last blogged and i don't really know what to blog. haa. Oh ya. Schools starting tomorrow again. Haven been studying in the past few days really felt that i slacken so much. Hmmm. The hardest thing in life is truely being consistent in all things and i really must learn to have that. Because i know with that God can do greater things through me and i can be so much more effective shinning for Him in my studies, family and ministry. A'level is so near and so is NS. HAHA. Time to shave "botak". I will definately get a cap! can't imagine how i'll look. But doesn't matter la. NS got who to show? LOL. But i believe it'sw gonna be a whole new level in there and i pray that i'll be ready to impact and not crushed when the time comes. Then comes uni. Hmmm. SMU or NUS? Business Management or Social Science? Either one la. hahaa. But for now better stay focus because it's really the daily efforts, that builds up that A'level cert.

Being a worshipper.

Well there's still service tomorrow and we're meeting at 9! Praise God i better get some rest or i'm gonna be late. take care! happy CNY! =)

xianbi jia you!

2008-01-17T16:37:00.000+08:00

yet in all these things.. i press on.

Being Still

2008-01-10T04:11:00.000+08:00

Being focus.

Haha. I seems like i love to blog late late in the night and everytime i blog it seems like i'm always mugging. Hmmm. Maybe it's a way that i relief my stress. Hahaa. Sorry to bore you with another typical post of mine. Anyway the best thing is that Royston's at my place right now and we're like studying like never before. Come to think of it.. We're not near any major examination or major tests but yet we still study like how we do. Hahaa. I think it's because of the different mentality and expectations we have. It's not just about passing or doing well it the distinctions that we are going for.

Smile!

Anyway i bought this new Mp3 at a really cheap price. It's a creative one something like an ipod but much more practical. Well now i don't have to depend on my phone when i'm traveling when i want to listen to some music. I love the mornings. Times like this. 4-5 plus. Where i would start my day by traveling to school by the Mrt. Most of the time that would be my favourite time to pray because there's so little people and at least i know it's a brand new day and it's gonna be better than the previous one. It's this moments that i really treasure because i know one day i will grow out of my youth and this feeling would surely fade away.

Solid cafe!

2008. Great year indeed. Thinking about my resolutions i have plenty. From my family to my studies but there's one that weighs the most. Hmmm. I guess that'll be another secret i keep between me and God. Haha. It's not really anything big. Something very simple, something that i build my life on all these while. Maybe i shall reveal it some other time. Hahaa. How i wish for a cup of Hot chocolate. Okay that's random. Bye!

Tea!

Psalm 27
A Psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear?

The LORD is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked came against me to eat up my flesh,

My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.

3 Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear;

Though war may rise against me, In this I will be confident.

4 One thing I have desired of the LORD, That will I seek:

That I may dwell in the house of the LORD All the days of my life,

To behold the beauty of the LORD, And to inquire in His temple.

5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion;

In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me;

He shall set me high upon a rock.

6 And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around
me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle;

I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the LORD.

7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice!

Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.

8 When You said, “Seek My face,”

My heart said to You, “Your face, LORD, I will seek.”

9 Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger;

You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me,

O God of my salvation. 10 When my father and my mother forsake me,

Then the LORD will take care of me.

11 Teach me Your way, O LORD,

And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.

12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;

For false witnesses have risen against me,

And such as breathe out violence.

13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed

That I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living.

14 Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen
your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!

AHHHHH! Ajisan!

I'm hungry.

forwarding

2008-01-02T09:56:00.000+08:00

MOS

He's the man!

Hmmm. I'm at the library now.. Today's the first day of school and also the beginning of a JC2 lifestyle. Everything's so slack today so i took the time to plan and get myself ready for the best year yet ahead. A whole new bunch of Jc 1 students came in and i just couldn't resist the temptation to get to know some of them. Making that difference. Well the last holiday in 2007 was definately the best one i ever had. It was indeed so fruitful. One thing for sure, i am closer to Him now. It's really in 2007 that i felt i really became a christian and when the cell group is no longer a cell group but a family to me. Most importantly it's just such an eventful year that i can't help boasting the faithfulness of God.

Double J.

The third Generation.

Woww!

Oh ya. Went to countdown with Royston, Cara, Joses and Kenneth and we literally countdown at the Mrt station. Downtown east was too packed and i didn't expect such a massive crowd over there. Haha. Oh ya. Pastor preached an awesome word last week and i really felt the most important thing right now at the beginning of 2008 is to change. Change whatever needs to be changed and improve on whatever needs to be improved. Haha. Yup. I don't want to be trapped in 2007 because i believe He has set 2008 to be an even better year where i will walk through deeper vallies and climb higher mountains. One very obvious mountian which i can never run from is the mighty A'levels. Hallelujah. Must really start disciplining myself if i really want to manage the ministry and studies at the same time. Started studying yesterday already with ken and xiang. Quite fruitful la. Went for my dental appointment today! Changed my braces to green. Haha. It's the "in" colour this season eh!

Laksa making thing.

Welcome.

New shirt!

Remember Lot's wife.

enjoy.

2007-12-31T03:17:00.001+08:00

really felt this is a nice song especially listening to it in the night.
I seldom listen to chinese songs. but this one is really nice. :)

random

2007-12-31T02:32:00.000+08:00

Say "cheese!"

just felt like blogging. it feels long since i last blog. anyway schools reopening in a few days and i've still got lots of work that i've not done. Hallelujah. So i was planning to use the last few days to really chiong and get back in tune with my studies before the school reopens of i can adapt back asap. Long days after long days. Tomorrow's the last day of the year already, just really want to take that day and rest, doing what i like and reorganizing my life. I really wonder what 2008 will bring forth. It's definately going to be better than 2007, so it just shows higher mountains to climb. Haha. Phew! 2007 has been amazing, thinking about all that i have done i really came to a conclusion that it's really the Lord. Because so many times my heart and my flesh fails but He was the one that keep me going and poured His grace and mercy into my life.

Thank you Royston.

HAHA!

Yawn. Really feel so sleepy now. Anyway plan to finish "the tempest" by tomorrow and start chioning math. Oh ya. Feel like shopping for myself as it feels so long since i went to get my self some stuffs. Haha. Anyway saw this superman shirt today that was on discount and that takamine guitar. ahaha. shall mug in the morning tomorrow and head straight to get the stuffs. but i really wonder when tomorrow approaches will i still get them? hahaa. it seems so much easier to bless right now then to get something for myself. haha. Wonder what plans royston has for coundown too. shall call him tomorrow morning then. yawn.

the ladies.

every process.

2007-12-24T03:06:00.000+08:00

Santa!

It's 3:05 am in the morning now and i'm just so glad. Finally a breakthrough, i can come once again with such boldness and focus in the things i do. Ha. Listening to this new chinese song for Jay's latest album. It's really very nice, well at least it suits my mood now. Haha. Oh ya. Christmas has been awesome recently. really treasure the moments i have with e149 now. Because i know it's only this part of my life that i will remain this close to them. really treasuring the moments i have with all of them now. :)

something shinny within.

Anyway i got my mum a christmas present already! Yay. But the best thing is that she really likes it. Phew. thank God! hahaa. It really cost me a bomb! Oh ya. Really can't wait to unwrap the present that royston gave to me. haha. It's been so long since i really recieve a real Christmas gift. LOL. Really reminds me of my childhood days. Where i would just eagerly wait to unwrap all the presents underneath the christmas tree. Haha. Anyway i'm just so grateful of where He has brought me till today. Without Him i really don't know how life will be like. i just want to treausre whatever i'm going through now.

Christmas!

fire

2007-12-18T01:08:00.000+08:00

yeah.

woo! Fruitful days it has been. Breakaway camp and Christmas next! Can't wait. Anyway went out with Joses and Desmond to catch "Warlords". Hai. One word. Disappointing. Expected something else out of it but still the common grace message was still strong. But that something really unexpected came out of that movie. ahaha. There's this part where all the soilders were starving for months without food then these soilders begin to talk about Jesus. HAHA. It was the story of the feeding of the 5000. lol. But instead of the original 5 loaves and 2 fishes it became 5 loaves and 2 piglets. LOL. China really china. Anyway this soilder said this super funny thing. "面包怎么分也分不完,小猪每天也都再生." HAHA. okay. nvm.

Cheers!

Vans.

Anyway it's super late already. Yawn. I'm going to bed now! hahaa. More visitations tomorrow. Yeah. So proud of my cell anyway! All of you guys are warriors man! :)

Ash!

huh?

tears

2007-12-15T10:31:00.000+08:00

Can't help missing my dad. That 9 days in shanghai really felt different. There was something really different in our relationship. I use to break down once or twice there as my dad would always scold me. But yet this time it's different. I felt like a son. He felt like a father. Wow. That kind of love and quality time, can never be compared to anything. This was the time i spent the most amount of time with my dad in my life. Really so thankful, because if it isn't the Lord i wouldn't have such a strength to love my dad. Saw my sister. She's just so amazing. I thank God that i had the bad start so my sister could have the better one. Really felt like "joseph" in the bible. Really pray that my family will continue to change for the glory of God.

My dad sms me. " Son, will you come next week? daddy miss you."

Lord. Thank You. Thank You for this transformation. Miss him driving. Miss him eating. Miss him hugging me in tears. "Daddy. You're the best dad i can ever have. Even you are inperfect but in my heart i still love you. Because you are my dad."

One day i want to earn lots of money. I want to let him live a good life. Such words like thoughts from a kid. I will always be that kid. That fortunate kid. No matter what, i'm thankful already. Thank You Lord. Amen.

Shanghai!

2007-12-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

A Grande Hot Chocolate-

Breath-taking.

Got it for my little sis!

Little sun of the family.

Extremely cool restraunt.

china

2007-11-27T17:35:00.000+08:00

Reflections.

It feels good to be in the land. In this land. The land of China. Where billions are awaiting to know their personal Lord ans Saviour, Jesus. Always been praying for this foregin nation from home but right now everywhere i walk i can pray directly of the people and the land. More specifcally and greater in details. This friend of mine gave me some china rmb and asked to give to the poor or buy them some food when i see them. Wow. When i carry that money around it feels no longer like money but i felt like a channel where toe blessings of the Lord could flow out of. Man! My last trip i spend everything and anything i had to fulfil my own pleasures but i pray my trip this time i can really be a blessing unto this land. But what can i really do? I'm only one man. There are so many out there, besides i'm living in a rich area how can i find the poor. What makes me think i can make a difference? If my money cannot go out there, at least maybe my smile, my attitude, my spirit or my prayer can reach them. If i can make one chinese smile, by picking up this person's bag or teaching some of the store keepers a little bit of english, then at least to that one i have made a difference!

ha!

This one week is really like a retreat for me. Never had so much chance in Sinapore to enjoy such a long period of solitude. It really gives me a chance to grow sharper as i talk less and hear more. Walking as a foreginer in such a land really feels cool. Someone even asked me if i was from Korea. Wow. Hahaa. That's was the most memorable thing that happened that day. Anyway i guess i'll put on lots of weight as i return, the "xiao long bao" is power man! hahaa. It's so cheap also, one bowl of noodles cost only a dollar plus, cheaper than a mee pok! hahaa. And the noodles is really awesome too! Going to get lots of true religion stuffs tomorrow, hope i'll be able to get some ed hardy or evisu on the way too. Hahaa. Oh ya. Do you think I phone is solid? Hmmm. okay that's so random. But before i go, i just want you to know that the chinese government blocks my blog and i believe yours should be too! hahaa. :)

JIANGSU ROAD - Home

Braces

2007-11-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Yang Gang!

So many things happen since i last blog. Hahaa. However i'm just to lazy to be constantly blogging. Anyway I've got my braces on already, and it's red. Yup. But it's actually a combination of light and dark red. It looks cool but it's seriously very very very painful. It's the 4th day already and i still can't bite soft stuffs like fishballs and so. Yup. I wonder how long would this last. All i know is that this is a stage that all "braces people" will go through. But if i am going to go through it let me go through it fast. Hahaa. Well li jin came on friday for the united challenge! And we found out that today is her actual birthday. Gonna make her into a mua ji. LOL. Soak her with water than make her roll in the sand. Pray that she will be sporting anyway.

Lord I'm hungry..

My last 2 piece meal before i put on my braces(Bondage). They all start with "B". Hahaa. Was wondering should i join the taletime solo competition but in the end i weren't able to bring myself to it. I seriously needed a guitarist and i couldn't find one that day. The song that i wanted to sing was "It's not easy to be me". Think many would know it as the superman song. Think i shall record my rendition of it and post it here! Okay. Back to the point. Joses and anthony and all the rest of the new friends and different members in the zone took part in the auditions but even though they did not make it through they are alresady winners because they dared to step out and try. So that's something i catch from them that day. Hahaa. It's always great to be hungry to catch the attitudes of the Lord. It doesn't matter if you're a leader or not but yet balance is the key of life.

ROAAAAAAAAR!

Ninja!

But if not, be it known unto thee

2007-11-14T04:00:00.000+08:00

United challenge!

Praise the Lord! I got 4 teeth extracted today. The injection and the plucking weren't the pain it was the aftermath. Wa. Pain until. haha. Never mind. Anyway i'm gonna get my braces this thursday morning. That one really must pray already. I'm really gonna miss KFC the most in this period of time. Surely can fast one. So pain how to eat? haha. Oh ya! I finish "Prince of the Legend" already, it's really getting draggy. As you know Koreans mah; People given to details. Or else how can the largest church be found there. Hahaa. It's really a compliment.

He's tired you see.

What kind of weapons will you choose in a war? Swords and amour made of steel? What excatly is the strongest weapon in a war? It's not the things which are dead or temporary. It's things that will last for eternity, it's the spirit of one, the spirit of the army. Because that's what keeps them from going on despite all odds. What kind of spirit? It's the spirit that Shadrach, Meshach and Abed-Nego had.

Shine through us!

"If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and he will deliver us out of thine hand, O king. But if not, be it known unto thee, O king, that we will not serve thy gods, nor worship the golden image which thou hast set up."
Daniel 3:17-18 (KJV)

Even till death they refuse to bow down towards the idols of their time. How about us? We may not engage in physical warfare. But what is your war today? Is it your studies? Is it a struggle you're trying to shake off?" So how do you measure victory in all these? Victory isn't necessarily haivng the results that you expect you would get. Not matter how hard you may fall. Get up again! Be like that 3 and say to your battle "But even if i fail, be it known unto thee, that i will not give up and claim any defeat!" Courage is not the absense of fear but it is going against all odds despite the exsistence of fear. For with God, all things are possible!

one word

2007-11-11T02:13:00.000+08:00

He said: "You are my son."
I replied: "Let me never walk out on You."

yay

2007-11-10T04:44:00.001+08:00

I'm driving a bus. Xiang's playing an arcade car game. hahaa.

Haiyo. Anthony. Hahaa.

Late nights after late nights. Hahaa. It's been so long since i last felt so relax. However it feels strange at the same time too. When i was busy till i can't catch my breath i always long for a break. But now when the holidays are here i'm sick of the slacking feeling. It just shows how man always desire for things which they don't have, because often it always look better. Haha. "The grass is greener on the other side." lol. Anyway i've been chiong-ing this new Korean drama series. It's call the Prince of the Legend. Hahaa. Sound cornny but it's just very nice la. So much about war and battle tatics, for guys it's definately a good show not to be missed. But there are romance scenes too la. Haha. Yup. It's united challenge tomorrow. Basketball 3 on 3. HAHA. It's been long since i touched that. But well i'll just have fun anyway. Yawn. I'm really getting sleepy. yup. yawn..

The korean drama la. I look like this now. Hahaa.

Assurance

2007-11-08T03:46:00.000+08:00

click. click. click.

jams.

One thing for sure i felt. No matter what's going on in your life. Everything will still go on. haha. "La la how the life goes on" That's part of the lyrics of a song my choir sang in our last concert. Was worshipping and just got stuck with this song that i kept singing again and again. It's s song called "Fall" by hillsongs i think.

"LORD I YEARN FOR YOU, LONG TO SEE YOU MOVE, O I LIFT MY HANDS BEFORE MY KING AND PRAY."

That's the bridge that i kept singing again and again. Hahaa. It's simply so amazing. It's like the cryout of my heart. Anyway i should be sleeping now but i don't know why i'm not. Just felt like blogging. Haha. Anyway I just want to be more filled on the inside. Feels empty again. It's time to refill! hahaa. "lala how the life goes on!"

i think it says "no". okay. that's dumb. Ha!

Oh ya! I wanted to blog about KFC. Hahaa. Went to starbucks in the afternoon to revise. All of a sudden brian showed up. I was just thinking about him because i remember we study once at that starbucks before. It was like such a coincidence. Anyway i've got to start revising already. Really don't have much time. Like what Royston always say " Struggling for survival, dreaming for distinction." Haha. Yay! Oh no! i side track agaian. Yup Back to Kfc. I'm so proud that i finish a 2 piece meal in 15mins. hahaa. ok. nvm. Had dinner with anthony then we went to work. Okay. enough of rubbish. i shall force myself to sleep. haha!

I lay down my rights

2007-11-07T02:03:00.000+08:00

Big mouth. Ha!

Felt so random. hahaa. went to bugis to celebrate Joses's birthday today. Played pool and had my first meal ever at Fish and Co. Woohoo! Seafood. hahaa. Thank God though i hate it i still had fish and chips to settle with. The "sabo" today was so successful! Yeah! hahaa. Anyway rushing my "Insights and Reflections- I&R" right now. So unwise of me to do it so late. But today was a great day! It's been many many months since i last touched a cue stick and felt the cloth on the pool table! Then i begin to reflect as i was playing and even now as i am typing this. I am just grateful of the things He has done in my life. I still have my desires, my urges and my wants, but when i think about what He has done i felt that i had no regrets living the way I live right now. Thank God for giving me this chance to serve in the ministry. It has really been an honour.

PUMA!

Well i know that if i trust in Him about the things concerning my life and would lay down my life 100% for Him whatever i need He will add it onto my life. While many are getting attached and having all the fun that they can, i have choose to serve Him and place all that aside. God is definately not against me getting attached or enjoying my life, but i felt that to be in the heat of the battlefield- that is enjoying life. It's always in the intensity of pressures that He is the closest to me. I rather have that then be in and out of relationships and playing 100 rounds of pool everyday. I will get attached. I know I will. But this just isn't the right time yet. I'm not ready for it and I just want to wait for the one that He is going to place in my life. So I shall live these years as a youth to the best that I can living 100% for Him, laying down my rights and glorfying Him. Let my life bring Him honour, for whatever i am doing isn't just about myself is about Him. What are helpers or leaders? It's only a tittle. But i know one thing. They fight for the freedom of many but most importantly to please their Lord and King. ha.

Yum!

my source

2007-11-02T03:28:00.001+08:00

He gave me that reason to smile. Despite all odds. thank You.

celebrations

2007-11-02T02:39:00.000+08:00

woohoo! My exams are over! Wow!
All those battles seems to have lasted forever. Anyway i put on the back part of my braces today! Ouch! It was really lots of pain.
Martin keep coming into my mind this few days. Really gonna miss him.
Anyway i had 4 appointments today! It was super cool la.
Can't wait to catch a movie and just chill. Mum said she's gonna get me a new guitar because i was promoted! Yay!

MJ 016

You are my strength.

2007-10-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

Can't wait to have my own. HA!

God is the strength of my heart.

Phew. Recieve that call this morning. Was really so shock when I finally realize it. Thought it was a dream but then it turn out to be true. Well. My fingers crossed. And i still place my trust in the Lord. I wouldn't say i am not affected at all. I do feel something. But i choose not to feel to much about it. Anyway i've given my best at least even if i really do fail. I have no regrets. A'level is a week time. Chinese and PW. Stuffs like these seems never ending. Really feel like taking a break and just rest for a while. (Maybe a vacation to Korea) Anyway to rest is to give myself more energy to run further. My whole seems like it's gonna crash any moment. Feel tired of going aganist all odds. Thoughts like "why serve" will come into my mind at times. But i hold onto one truth that always will prevail. God is the strength of my heart, and my portion, forever. "Lord i choose You. The world may give me fun. Serving may be tough. But God i still choose You. I still choose You. Burn me on Lord. I love You." When i'm weak you are strong! You're my feet when i can't move on!

I wonder how are you.. : D

Wow. I'm so proud of it. Thanks Anan.

1 2 3 jump! hahaa.

Long long week.

2007-09-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

Everybody meet yingying! Carine Wu!

The past few weeks have really been real stretching for me. Having to balance the ministry, studies and family at the same time really wear me out. But i'm still on fired burning for Him! yeah! Anyway my Dad just went back to Shanghai with my cute little sister! I've decided to name her carine! Nice name eh? Really miss my dad now. As my promos are near even when he is back i did not manage to spend lots of time with him. But some of the moments which i will never forget are the breakfasts we would have. Waking up at 5plus driving to the near by prata stall to have our breakfast was really fun! HAHA. Gonna miss lots of that!

The super cool Japanese restaurant!

Anyway as i was reading the gospel if John I was impacted by chapter 16. Even though the message is simple but yet it's so profound. If one can really experience the true meaning of the last verse.

Any for you?

"I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” -John 16:33 NLT

Sake! I only had one and half cup. hahaa.

No matter what mountains may come my way, may it be my PROMOS or spiritual warfare i have already won! Because there was one Man, one Saviour that stand before me and took all my defeats upon His back in order to give me victory. A conqueror conquerors, but someone being more than a conqueror means even before he retaliates he has already conqueor. Because someone has already conqueror that land for him. Pressures are not meant to crush us but the strengthen us.

"We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;" 2 Cor 4:8

A Rush Of Love

2007-09-04T02:37:00.000+08:00

People Of Destiny

More than words.

I thought i wouldn't feel much.
I thought i would be used to it by now.
I thought i would just felt plainly happy.
But yet i am wrong. So it just prove one thing.
That as happy as i can be.
I am human too.
I really miss them.
So i need to learn to treasure what is now.
Before i part from them again.
E149'07 You guys are simply lovely!

Their smile warms my heart.

Memories.

A shout from within

2007-08-28T01:15:00.000+08:00

He's just so real.

"Come on! What's holding you back? When will you breakthrough? Why do you wish to go through the same things again and again? Why have you harden you heart? Sign.. Xianbi (place your name or CG here) do you know you are so powerful.. You.. You are like my best arrows but yet you choose not to believe in yourself... I have choosen you.. I have placed my words into your mouth.. I have touched your lips... And do you know it hurts me so much to see you being hurt. Why let another relationship, lust or sin destroy our relationship? Do you care about what I feel? Hmmm.. But.. I always care how you feel... Because I love you."

I closed my eyes and teared. I love my sheep so much and it hurts me to see them being hurt. Then i prayed because that's the best i know i can do for them. A shepherd will always have a heart for his people like God whom always keep us in His heart.. Thank you Holy Spirit.

hit the floor

2007-08-21T01:29:00.000+08:00

Captivated by your beauty.

Sometimes as we engage the culture we may fall in an area or two, while others may stumble in more areas. But yet everytime we fall we will feel guilty about our actions. To men they will judge us by our actions but God sees the heart. It's the motive within us that matters to him the most. In other words, our attitude. So why some people as they engage the culture they struggle with 'approval' or have the fear of men in their lives, because they value their actions higher then their intentions. Therefore if we want the fear of the Lord in our lives then we should start looking at our intentions.

WHAM!

That's why pastor is so urgent about the sermon on the mount, because as he had taught us to engage the culture and now he needs to highlight and empower us with situations that may stumble us. So having the word place in our lives we will have more wisdom and most importantly the Spirit of God can bring us rememberance when we are about to fall. Many times i've sinned too. Big sin, small sin. But yet today i really felt Him griefing. He asked mean if i really mean it when i call Him Lord. Then i remember, if He's not the Lord of all in my life, He's not my Lord at all. Well not just engaging the culture, but in our everyday life, if we love Him we will keep His commandments and heed His voice. They are not laws that we need to follow but they are the expressions of our love.

Check this out!

2007-08-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

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Maturing

2007-08-09T04:05:00.000+08:00

Oh man.. I can't wait to have this again.

Rasins!

Mjc!!!

She's the best!

Hot Chocolate!

He's a person.

2007-07-17T10:13:00.000+08:00

YAY! I've got my chocoloate chip cream! hahaa.

Wow. I just felt this so strongly. Hmmm. We may read lot's of books. Hear lots of sermons. Have lots of people to minister to us. But yet the connection between the Holy Spirit and us is not just built upon these stuffs. Those are only the "add on"s. The "upsizes" in our walk with Him. But yet it's a heart to heart connection. It's like what the bible says, "the deep calling onto the deep."

Me and Joses!

Sometimes i wonder. We may pray. We may fast. We may hear lots of sermons and read the Word of God. But yet why do we still habitually sin in a particular area? Then i realise. It's not by what we do. It's all about Him! It's about the connection between Him and me. We may pray. We may fast. We may read His Word. But is there any connection at all? Only our hearts will know. The Holy spirit is a person. And i feel sorry. Sorry that i've hurt Him by building my righteousness on the things of the natural, the things which i can see, the things which i feel are the most important stuffs.

Lights.

Looking at Xiang's life i really feel blessed. He's just my best friend. One that came to church with me. An ordinary guy like every other in City Harvest Church. But i thank God that he has such a great spiritual hunger that differs him from other men. That kind of spiritual hunger is really addictive. And i want that. My righteousness and godliness is not built upon dead works nor religious duties. But wholly on God. I don't want a min of my prayer life to go to waste. I want every single second of my life soaking in His presence. I rather have a shorter prayer life than one without Him. But of course i want a long prayer life with Him. Hahaa. It's more than leading and serving. It's really, really, really walking with Him.

fresh coffee or fresh ideas,

2007-07-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

Double Chocolate Chip!

Yawn. I'm seriously tired. Hahaa. Felt like i was fasting today. Didn't really eat at all. Didn't have the time to do so. Lost my phone during lunch so spent lunch time finding it. Then came dinner which i was busy leading study group after cell. Played the guitar today. Well all that i can say is that i don't want to be an annointed rubbish. I need to practice! Hmmmm. Really feeling like sleeping but have lots of reports, assignments and tutorial to catch up with.

But all that I want now is to really know who the Holy Spirit really is. "Good morning Holy Spirit" is really a awesome book. Just when i thought i knew Him but in fact i don't really. Well got to bathe now. Should i sleep or should i mug? Hmmm. Guess Royston is battling too. With all His SOT work. Well i've just got to keep on keeping on. Tomorrow will be a long day again. Got another chance to play cell. But my hands really hurt. Hahaa. "God.. Come and refresh my soul! I don't want to be lost in the busy schedules of studies and ministry."

His work got to go on.

Anyway i really wish i'm at starbucks now! hahaa. I want to drink some frap! ok. I'm really random today. Hahaa. Well.. I need to seriously love my mum, Cutting down on all the conflicts and misunderstanding. I don't want to be too tired for her. Give me strength the God of my heart!

thank you

2007-06-25T03:40:00.000+08:00

Yong xiu's 21th birthday! Fianlly we've got a nice shot!

New Believers mirror like a guitar with new strings,
sounding the purest chords but easily out of tune.
The same is their love for God, pure and beautiful,
But yet the need for discipling ensures they stay on tune.

Older Believers mirror like a guitar with old strings,
sounding less sharp at every chord but yet so stable.
The same is their love for God, passive at points,
But yet their stability with discipling ensures that they are on fired.

A disciple can only be called one when he does not despise
the art of rebuke, which is through discipling.
Like the bible says, Iron sharpens Iron.
"Their patience with us is amazing. Thank you to all the Shepherds of the zone!"